Visions of spring dance in my head

Good morning Blogsphere!

Have you ever had a day when you woke up and despite the weather – the cold, the clouds, the gloomy day – you just felt like sunshine on the inside?

Last night was wonderful! Scott and I went for a late dinner, and then a bit of dancing. I love to dance, and that man is smooth sis-ta let me tell ya! We stayed out till about 1:30 AM, despite the fact that I have a huge work day today. I didn’t care. It just felt so good to be so close! ::giggle::

I woke up at 6:30! Can you believe that? After not getting home until so late, I figured I’d probably sleep the morning away, but my lil brain was firing neurons bright and early!

Cher and I have been working on getting new products listed for our Shop over on Etsy. I’m really excited about this new venture. She’s got my bags, and is supposed to be photographing them outdoors (I leave that up to her because I truly SUCK with my lil dinosaur of a digital camera) but her weather isn’t cooperating either. None the less, please go check it out. Tell me what you think of the banner graphic because its Chloe Made LOL.

I’m hoping the shop does well, and the items I put on consignment yesterday do well too because…..

(Drum roll)

I’m going to ALABAMA for EASTER!!!!!

Scott asked last night if I would consider coming. Its something we’ve briefly touched on anyway in other conversations, and I told him, as long as I can stay in a hotel, that would be fine. SO! ALABAMA HERE I COME!

Can ya tell I’m a bit psyched about it?

Okay okay, I know you’re all dying for the skinny on my beau, so here ya go -

He’s 35, about to be 36, born in April of 1972 to older parents who are both deceased now.  (Father was retired military).

He has one sister who is 3 years his senior and had a brother who died at age 3 in a drowning accident.

He was born in Atlanta Georgia, but his family moved to Alabama when he was 7. First they lived in Mobile, then some smaller towns but settled in Montgomery when he was in his freshman year of high-school.

He attended Auburn University where he obtained his MBA in Marketing and a BA in Visual Communications Technology. He also recently completed a BA from The University of Phoenix On-line in e-Commerce.

He currently works as the Art Director for a major publishing company who’s headquarters are in Birmingham, with branch offices in Atlanta, New York, Chicago, and Dallas. I can’t say which for legal purposes.

He owns his own home in Montgomery, near his sister and her family and when he doesn’t work from his home or isn’t flying around the country, he commutes 1.5 hours to the Birmingham office. He says he’s never considered moving to Birmingham because his sister lives in Montgomery. (They are very close)

He is 6′ – 2″ tall (almost an entire foot taller than me), is very muscular (He loves to ski – both water and snow – plays baseball with a city league and swims a lot). He’s got the prettiest blueish-green eyes I have ever seen, has sort of sandy blond hair that is lighter on the top from being out in the sun… ugh! I just can’t describe him enough to do him justice. He’s BEE YOO TEE FULL!!!!!!

There are just so many qualities I find totally endearing about him! Like the fact that his sister has 3 kids – 2 girls and a boy – and although he doesn’t want to have kids of his own, he loves his nieces and nephew and does a lot of things with them. His sister’s husband is military and has been deployed since last May, so he spends a lot of time with her and her children.

Or the fact that he loves animals – which, I do to, which is why I don’t own one, because I am so goofy I may just accidentally kill it or something.

He’s musical – plays guitar with a group of friends, and also plays piano.

Anywhoodles – probably the thing I like most about him is that he respects me and my values and beliefs. When I told him I’d come if I could stay in a hotel, he didn’t even flinch! He just smiled and said “of course.” He did offer to pay for the room, but I won’t allow it.

We have discussed a lot of serious things. And you know, the more we talk, a lot of the things that I thought I had resolved myself to, just don’t seem that important anymore.

I try to stay level headed and remain calm and distanced, but the more we talk, and every time I see him, I think to myself that waking up next to him every day may not be such a bad thing. And I catch myself throughout the day wondering what is he doing right then, at that moment, or what does he look like when he wakes up, or just gets out of the shower or has been working in his yard? Or does he think about me as much as I think about him?  Crazy, silly girlie things like that and honestly, it doesn’t feel so bad.

One of the things I’ve always been worried about talking about in relationships is having children. A lot of people have accused me of being cold, or not liking kids and that’s just not the case. But if I’m anything, I’m level headed and I know that I’m just not at a point in my life where children would be a smart decision, you know? There is another reason too – I have always had female problems. When I was 17, I had to have emergency surgery for a ruptured ovarian cyst and my doctor told me then that I have polycystic ovarian disorder – which means my ovaries constantly developed cysts which grew out of control and were very painful. I also had endometriosis. With those two problems, I had a partial hysterectomy when I was 26. It was a tough choice to make because of the fact that I was single and even though I didn’t want kids then, there was the chance that I would, some day. But I knew with the endo that my chances of getting pregnant to begin with were slim at best and carrying to term would have been an even greater challenge. I also knew that the cysts that were constantly developing had the possibility to become cancerous later on.  Since then, I’ve just learned to resolve myself to the fact that having kids is something I won’t ever experience, and its okay. I have a great life.

Scott says he doesn’t want children because he can’t see bringing another child into a world that has such an uncertain future, and I respect that.  He says he watches what his sisters children go through with the absence of their own dad, and he just can’t see risking putting a child through that, even though he isn’t military himself, because he is in his mid-thirties and although he is in great health, you just never know what can happen.

So, we had the child discussion and you know, he made me smile so big when he said “Well that’s okay Chloe because if we had a child, I’d have to divide my attention between  you and he or she, and frankly, I would just rather dote on you.” (Yah you can say it – “awwwwwww!!!!”)

Anywhoodles!  I’m going down in a couple of weeks to meet his sister. I’m nervous about it. What if she doesn’t like me? They are so close. Scott says it doesn’t matter, but I really want her to like me, because I really, really like him! Her name is Amanda, so everyone send good vibes about me to her okay? LOL

I’ve got to get off my duff and get busy. We’re going to the Field Museum today and the Aquarium, before work.

Hope you all have a sunshiney bright day!

Love always,

Chloe Jayne